Do You Believe

Do you believe
in your heart of hearts
In a God that loves infinitely
and knows you by name
and crafted all the world
and has a path prepared for you
and died on the Cross for a world that hated Him?

When you can testify
but there doesn't seem to be a single shadow
where hostility isn't lurking
Do you believe that you are on the side
of the One who was and is and is to come?

When everything is fan-frickin-tastic
and there's no end to your angry mumbles
Do you believe that you have been baptised
in the blood of Love Himself?

Do you believe
in the midst of soul-numbing luxury
in the midst of groans and rolling eyes
when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed
in your heart of hearts
In the great I AM
with as much conviction and ease
as you believe in the sky and the earth
and every jumble of atoms in between?

Do you believe that
if He really wanted it
that mountain jump into the Pacific?

I don't

My heart of hearts is a jumble
of nonsense and truth
and that infernal unreason doesn't budge easily

But I want to believe
I want the faith that can move mountains
and turn the world upside down

It takes a risk
it takes a step out of the "normal" life
It takes a jump into the insecure

You have to be ready
to look like an idiot
to stand out in the rain
lost and without so much as a dime
to let go of everything and everyone
to feel let down

That's what it takes
to trust
to pray
to believe
And if you don't spend a night
in cold, humiliating insecurity
Either that night is on its way
or your not doing it right

Here's the cliff
Are you ready to jump?