A Christian in College

I'm wandering through the halls of academia
I'm navigating my way through the strait and narrow maze

The scripture is sound
but my heart is offbeat
The verses are sensible
but the world is all noise

The path is straight and narrow
but everything around it
from the sky to the seas to each tiny little pebble
to time, space, and gravity
is one giant mess

I hear Uncle Screwtape
he's whispering confusion
he's showing me darkness
he's pointing out into nothing

He's got these books that are so full of wisdom
but there's just so many lies
so much nonsense
I can't tell truth from fiction
These books have hidden treasures
but everything else in them is pointing everywhich way
and no way at all

I run to the Church
and he calls out the hounds
hypocrisy
pride
faction
decency

I flip through the Word
but so much is foreign to me
There's so much that I think I understand
and I'll think it over for an hour
but I'm still unchanged

I get a surge of piety
I pray each day
I read and discern
But at the end of the month
He's back once more
He's got some new trick
and I don't even try to resist

He left me alone at my peak
But now I'm back down in the gutter
back down in the normal
the ninety percent of my life
And to tell you the truth
he really doesn't need that new trick

I know it's a battle
but I can't read my orders
I know I've got the truth
but I can't remember where I left it

It's all up to God
It's all about faith
It's all about the Power
and Love
and Majesty
that made me and remakes me

It's all up to Him
Because I'm in a paper boat
in a paper ocean
And the only way I'm surviving this mess
is with a miracle